Oliver

lets fuck shit up and do this leadership routine … after I nap. FOSHO.

there are many things i regret. at this point i feel alone in the world now. each day i feel like theres nothing left to hold on to. that everything i was and can be is disappearing and all i have now is this tiny thread. people look at me and probably think at this point, “he doesnt even deserve my pity”. which is true. i dont. i know it because its the look i get from all the faces i pass by. each filled with disgust. and who do i have to blame, none other than myself. i hate this feeling. this self-pity. i want to improve. but it really isnt that easy. to climb out of a ditch you dug yourself. am i living for myself? or for others … i think its the latter. if it isnt for my family for my friends. if i still truly have any. i wouldnt be typing this. i’d be some place else wherever that may be. sometimes i look in the mirror and ask “who are you” or “why are you still here”. hoping for an answer. what is the point in even typing this. no one gives a flying fuck. and so i’ll just leave now and wallow in my depression a bit more.

depression is a killer.

i just keep fucking up

not a good way to start off the day. wake up and she really wants to talk but me being a jerk get irritated. probably wont talk to me the rest of the day now…yeah. keep fucking up.

swagawsummer:

I just wanted to talk to you. I should of said something for those moments that seemed quiet. I should of made up for the time we haven’t talked within those seconds. I don’t know…I’m stupid. You kind of ruined my day. Made me sad. I hope you don’t see this. I just wish I could read you like a…

check your phone babe.

(Source: some-more-time)

Normally i’d trip hearing that she got closer to some dude in band. But since i know she loves me and i love her, i trust her so it aint nothin but a thang. I missed her the whole day though, hope the rest of break isnt like this with barely any talk.

Everytime i watch a movie/tv show and see a couple kiss it makes me miss you even more.

Intrigued by the scissors haha.

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I hate riding with my mom she drives so so so damn slow. Late for the haircut Dx

I love you. Only you.